The Return Of Depression

August 21, 2012

Today I was very vulnerable and emotional. There were moments that I was just laying down and staring at the ceiling spaced out, then there were moments where i would suddenly get sad and lock myself in the bathroom and cry.

The crazy thing is that I know there will be brighter days ahead and I know what God can do....But its been an ongoing battle with my spirit and
my emotions. I can feel the Depression trying to raise its ugly head back  into my life again...But I'm refusing to let it back in...I just feel like I have more fight in me....

Living with Depression and Bipolar Disorder-June 25, 2011 11:18pm

Today was a good day and a blah day. It had to be about 101 degrees today. It was so hot that it drained me just being outside.My emotion were very up and down throughout the day. One moment I was happy and laughing, and the next I was feeling angry and down in my room with the covers over my head with a migraine. I don't know why I was feeling like that, but all I mostly did was lay down and watch movies and came out just so jada could play for a bit. My appetite was crazy today as well. Its gotta be the medicine. Jada must have known I was down because while I was laying down, she got her brush and comb, and started brushing my hair and rubbing my head.
She's such a blessing to me and she's a sweetheart.
Well that's it for today....more to come tommorow...goodnight and God Bless...

Living with Depression and Bipolar Disorder

This blog entry is about me living with bipolar disorder and depression and my daily journey. I've never told anyone about this due to fear of being judged and rejected by family, friends and other people. But I'm no longer going to live in fear. I'm putting my total trust and faith in God to get through this journey in my life at this time. I was diagnosed back in November of 2010. I've been through so much in life and didn't handle things properly and there's been so much traumatic things happen to me that it was slowly effecting my mental state and physical. Well guys, my daily journey begins now...hope this helps someone out there.

Friday,June 24,2011
5:30 pm
Today was very peaceful. I took my meds this morning and my mind is clear and I organized my room and took a nap. Waiting for dinner to be ready. I lost a lot of weight but in the right places lol. I'm glad that I'm feeling much better and can focus and concentrate with my medications. I feel like I'm going through a transformation in life like a catepillar does while in its cacoon. What's also helping me get through is a lot of good people that have come into my life...especially my good friend Sinnamone. Just being who she is and the wisdom she has has been a major help. Her spirit and bubbly personality is so inspiring. Getting ready to eat ill brb guys......